I found myself lying flat on my back Awaiting something to pull me up To take me from this stagnant state I’ve locked myself into Complacency has drained all my motivation And I am paralyzed by apprehension But I must find it in me to lose everything To sacrifice and change my life I can’t continue to be this empty shell only seeking comfort It’s not who I ever wanted to be But it’s never been so difficult to dream And it’s never been harder to imagine… Myself in a position where I can be the man I want to be If I could roll back the clock, I would have already realized my dreams Time stands still for no one I must begin to move forward I must begin to move forward I refuse to stand still here any longer But this thought of failure consumes my everything Leaving me winded Choking on the fact that I would remain So stagnant, complacent Representing life I don’t… Even believe in Now I must risk everything And on his last night in town, my brother grabbed me by the arm and he pulled me aside He said with more conviction than I’d ever seen in his eyes He said… “Get the fuck out of this town You don’t belong here Escape from this place or it’ll become your tomb You have more to offer than anyone here can give you Don’t make do with this life you’ve been living these last two years Chained up by doubt, consumed by your fears You’re bigger than this. You’re bigger than this.”

I’ll drink myself to sleep one more night as I revel in memories of An embrace I can no longer request with frequency or any sort of meaning It seems that pride has swallowed you whole, but I can’t complain ‘Cause ambition has drove me away And though you say “myths like love are dead chemicals,” I’ll hopelessly breathe life to this fable I won’t burry it Breathing down her neck I said the word “forever” once She shot me down and said, “Words like forever, no! Not for us,” But her warning has been… Disregarded in a fashion one might call delusional But it gives me the strength To push through the greatest pain I’ve ever known Known since we’ve learned… Love is not patient Love is not kind But some things They don’t fade in time And if to love is to suffer Then to let you go Is the only way that I know To suffer with honor But I would set pride aside Just to live in your eyes And though you say these chemicals are dead I know they still linger in me I won’t burry this No, these chemicals aren’t dead I could never bury it And the lurking though of putting my life on hold Perches itself on my shoulder Daring me to dismiss all my dreams And find identity in yours We both know we would never rest easy Living as an accessory But I can’t find peace in separation Only regret in parting ways Breathing down her neck I said the word “forever” once She shot me down and said, “Words like forever, no! Not for us,” We grew listening behind closed doors Just listening, as love died around us And I’d done anything; Cried with my mouth shut just to preserve us Love is not patient Love is not kind But some things They don’t fade in time And if to love is to suffer Then to let you go Is the only way that I know To suffer with honor But I would set pride aside Just to live in your eyes And though you say these chemicals are dead I know they still linger in me I’m cluttered with memories of time that slipped from me They don’t fade They don’t dim They just replay And never spread thin But this affliction sends me spiraling Through a cluster of emotion I can’t shake I can’t break I can barely take So I’ll hold onto us tight I won’t bury this.

You’d be a fool to believe that hatred only exists In the hearts of the weak, and the wicked And you’d be a fool to believe that there is anyone incapable of A disdain so deep The hate is real They taught me to do my best to hide my anger They said “you got some problems kid,” A slave to depression But they don’t understand why kids can’t breathe easily today The loss, the scars, the pain we try to hide, but we can’t seem to shine that bright And if feels so selfish when the whole world’s caving in And it feels so selfish when we can’t rise above… All the things in our lives that make our hearts heavy and cold Abuse, neglect and abandonment and shame from every tear we’re taught to hide Let it be your fuel, let it be your reason To crave such a violent change Let it be a reminder of everything you promised yourself you would never be So don’t be ashamed when hate comes for you Use it for change; hate is a tool So hold on tight, and don’t let go until you’re satisfied The hate is real So hold on tight Your hate is justified